It's all been done

I feel like I've done it all this weekend. Feeling kind of burnt out, in fact. I promise I'll write something more when I get the chance.

Call me when you're sober

(it's what just came on the radio..)

At Amy's house. Going to a dinner at the church, then coming back and partying. I love my life.

All is full of love

It's a nice song, by Björk.

Not saying there's "love in the air" or anything - just further "developments" perhaps. Alright, so me and Amy kind of made out last night.. but we're still just friends. What, don't believe me? :P

We're going to Fredericton next weekend - another road trip, yay! Tomorrow night we're going to the "Squeaky Clean Comedy Showcase" - part of the Hubcap Comedy Festival, which has apparently been going on for a few years, though this is the first I've heard of it. Moncton is called the "hub city," hence the name Hubcap. Then there's a big, crazy party on Saturday - I'll let you know about all the drugs I see..

Give a little bit

Before I begin, I'll give you something to laugh about:

http://www.dilbert.com/comics/dilbert/archive/dilbert-20070203.html

and then this one: http://www.dilbert.com/comics/dilbert/archive/dilbert-20070205.html


Alright, so I realize I've *totally* been slacking off with this. I swear that my life was less busy before I started doing this, but then you probably know that if you've read carefully.

The weekend was great, and we did in fact have one of the best road trips ever, as far as quality of conversation and experiences goes. I had about three hours of sleep and drove almost 800km over the course of about 15 hours. And in the middle of all that, I managed to meet Amy's relatives in Kentville, we had a meal at their restaurant, she met my grandparents, and we went out for sushi with my friend Ryan in Halifax. Amy had only about half as much sleep as I did, but we both managed to stay awake the whole time, except for about 5-10 minutes of Amy dozing off. It's a good thing we both like to talk a lot, because that's what kept us going. It was actually a bit stormy heading out and all the way past Truro, which was a bit scary at times, but that's another thing that kept us awake. There were some neat moments when one of us would say something uplifting (Amy's been feeling really down and so I'll sometimes find something to say that will cheer her up), and the sun would come out of the clouds just at that moment - it just felt like God was smiling down on us. :)

Over the past few days we'd still been struggling with the issue of whether we want to be dating or not... but Amy had a really good day today and came to some deep realizations about things and now knows that she wants to be "just" friends. Of course I put the word in quotation marks because I wouldn't want to belittle or downplay the quality of the relationship, since we share a great connection. I felt pretty sure that we weren't going to get into a romantic relationship, and I'm glad she fully realizes it now and we can both breathe easier knowing that we don't have that element to complicate things between us. It was a really emotional and joyful moment on the phone today - she read me something she had written to say to her ex, something along the lines that she is thankful to have had that experience and that she realizes they won't get back together again - she's finally accepting that and at peace with it, which is a big step. A lot has happened in the past 2 or 3 weeks and it's been up and down a lot, but it appears that things are really stabilizing and that Amy's settling into a happy, healthy outlook on things. Through all this, she's really helped me too, because to really help her and see her grow gives me confidence, and she's even started to help out some of her friends now. I know I probably can't convey exactly how all of this feels, but I trust you can get some idea and that it makes some sense. :)

And although I'll keep trying to post faithfully, I'm beginning to get a feel for the quality vs. quantity aspect of this activity.

Nothing but the dead and dying back in my hometown

Last night, we drove by a house that was surrounded by yellow police tape and at least four police vehicles, with an officer standing out on the street to guard the place. This morning in the paper I found out that a man died there under "suspicious circumstances" - ah, Moncton.

So things are shaping up really really well for the trip this weekend. I've gotten in touch with a couple people and it should be about as good as it can be for a day trip.

It's already getting a bit late and I know I didn't post yesterday, but I can do what I want. :P

And in case you were interested (I suppose you probably are), I stayed over at Amy's last night.

I'm so happy

Well, it's official. Amy is *not* my girlfriend. Hah. Bet you didn't see that one coming. :P

In fact, Amy's a really good friend for me right now, and I'm really enjoying my time with her. We went out to Montana's tonight and had a great chat. I kept forgetting that I had to order, or that I had food, or a cheque to pay. What I really like about Amy is she's very open and she's not afraid to talk about anything. None of this bullshit with issues hanging over our heads that are not to be mentioned, stuff like that. I told her tonight that I feel more like myself now. I also like being able to help and to listen, because she has a lot of things going on right now like trying to get over her ex and trying to figure out what to do with her life. As weird as it might sound, I'm helping her to understand her new-found faith. I feel like I understand it from the perspective of someone who has been through it and moved past it, but I still understand why it helps some people and how it might help her. I'm also steering her away from the trappings of guilt and fear that people can fall into because of religion. I know it doesn't have to be like that, and I know there are people in the church who would agree with me. I'm sure they wouldn't agree with everything I say, and I imagine they might not even like me "influencing" her if they knew what I truly believe, but of course I don't care about that, I only care about what's best for her, and coming from a non-religious background as she is, I think it can be a bit of a shock to try to get advice on how to live by people who've gone to this kind of church all their lives and don't know anything else. I'm there to tell her, yes, it's ok to go to a club if it doesn't tempt you to do something you would regret and if you just like to go out dancing with your friends. Isn't it obvious? Well, it is, really, to her, but she's pretty vulnerable and she's liable to take very seriously what leaders in the church will tell her, so she needs someone to help balance things out.. to see their advice for what it is, and that it's ok to trust her own intuition. She's got a long way to go, she's pretty much just a kid at 21, since she's always been dependent on someone else to make decisions for her and support her. I know there's the danger of me turning into that next person, but we're both aware of it, that's one thing we talk about, so we're getting her back on her own feet. Or maybe even on her own feet for the first time. It's really a great feeling, to help someone like this, and although it may sound selfish, I feel that it's a very healthy and we both feel good because of it.

Ah, and now I finally feel like I've posted something really meaningful that's going on in my life. Thanks for listening. :)

Feelin' Groovy

"Slow down, you're going to fast. You've got to make the moment last."

I just love that little ditty by everyone's favourite 60's pop folk artists - what, they're not yours? :P

Anyhow, it's been one of those evenings of "let's see how many MSN conversations I can hold at once until I start to feel overwhelmed." Well, okay, maybe that's an exaggeration. Ok, maybe not, since I'm still getting distracted and taking several minutes to write each sentence.

Ahem.

I think that maybe I should write down ideas for this journal as they come to me. Sometimes at the end of the day, I'm just thinking, "Okay, what can I put down here that's interesting, and how can I do it as quickly as possible so I can get to bed before too late?" Well, I bet what's not interesting is this kind of ranting. ;P

I'm planning a road trip down to NS soon. Amy and I are going to drive down in her van. At first we thought it would be this weekend, but she told a friend she would go out with her, so it'll probably be the next. That's ok, gives us more time to plan (for once!) and seek out what has been the original motivation for this trip... a quest - for magic. ;)