I'm so happy
Well, it's official. Amy is *not* my girlfriend. Hah. Bet you didn't see that one coming. :P
In fact, Amy's a really good friend for me right now, and I'm really enjoying my time with her. We went out to Montana's tonight and had a great chat. I kept forgetting that I had to order, or that I had food, or a cheque to pay. What I really like about Amy is she's very open and she's not afraid to talk about anything. None of this bullshit with issues hanging over our heads that are not to be mentioned, stuff like that. I told her tonight that I feel more like myself now. I also like being able to help and to listen, because she has a lot of things going on right now like trying to get over her ex and trying to figure out what to do with her life. As weird as it might sound, I'm helping her to understand her new-found faith. I feel like I understand it from the perspective of someone who has been through it and moved past it, but I still understand why it helps some people and how it might help her. I'm also steering her away from the trappings of guilt and fear that people can fall into because of religion. I know it doesn't have to be like that, and I know there are people in the church who would agree with me. I'm sure they wouldn't agree with everything I say, and I imagine they might not even like me "influencing" her if they knew what I truly believe, but of course I don't care about that, I only care about what's best for her, and coming from a non-religious background as she is, I think it can be a bit of a shock to try to get advice on how to live by people who've gone to this kind of church all their lives and don't know anything else. I'm there to tell her, yes, it's ok to go to a club if it doesn't tempt you to do something you would regret and if you just like to go out dancing with your friends. Isn't it obvious? Well, it is, really, to her, but she's pretty vulnerable and she's liable to take very seriously what leaders in the church will tell her, so she needs someone to help balance things out.. to see their advice for what it is, and that it's ok to trust her own intuition. She's got a long way to go, she's pretty much just a kid at 21, since she's always been dependent on someone else to make decisions for her and support her. I know there's the danger of me turning into that next person, but we're both aware of it, that's one thing we talk about, so we're getting her back on her own feet. Or maybe even on her own feet for the first time. It's really a great feeling, to help someone like this, and although it may sound selfish, I feel that it's a very healthy and we both feel good because of it.
Ah, and now I finally feel like I've posted something really meaningful that's going on in my life. Thanks for listening. :)
In fact, Amy's a really good friend for me right now, and I'm really enjoying my time with her. We went out to Montana's tonight and had a great chat. I kept forgetting that I had to order, or that I had food, or a cheque to pay. What I really like about Amy is she's very open and she's not afraid to talk about anything. None of this bullshit with issues hanging over our heads that are not to be mentioned, stuff like that. I told her tonight that I feel more like myself now. I also like being able to help and to listen, because she has a lot of things going on right now like trying to get over her ex and trying to figure out what to do with her life. As weird as it might sound, I'm helping her to understand her new-found faith. I feel like I understand it from the perspective of someone who has been through it and moved past it, but I still understand why it helps some people and how it might help her. I'm also steering her away from the trappings of guilt and fear that people can fall into because of religion. I know it doesn't have to be like that, and I know there are people in the church who would agree with me. I'm sure they wouldn't agree with everything I say, and I imagine they might not even like me "influencing" her if they knew what I truly believe, but of course I don't care about that, I only care about what's best for her, and coming from a non-religious background as she is, I think it can be a bit of a shock to try to get advice on how to live by people who've gone to this kind of church all their lives and don't know anything else. I'm there to tell her, yes, it's ok to go to a club if it doesn't tempt you to do something you would regret and if you just like to go out dancing with your friends. Isn't it obvious? Well, it is, really, to her, but she's pretty vulnerable and she's liable to take very seriously what leaders in the church will tell her, so she needs someone to help balance things out.. to see their advice for what it is, and that it's ok to trust her own intuition. She's got a long way to go, she's pretty much just a kid at 21, since she's always been dependent on someone else to make decisions for her and support her. I know there's the danger of me turning into that next person, but we're both aware of it, that's one thing we talk about, so we're getting her back on her own feet. Or maybe even on her own feet for the first time. It's really a great feeling, to help someone like this, and although it may sound selfish, I feel that it's a very healthy and we both feel good because of it.
Ah, and now I finally feel like I've posted something really meaningful that's going on in my life. Thanks for listening. :)
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